A multitude of faces cannot hide the realness of the ♥. At the end of the day, lonely people will end up lonely no matter how they hide their ♥s behind happy faces, overflowing booze, and deafening music.

Birthday Prayer :)

Thank You Lord for another year, for all the people who have come and gone, the people who stayed and the people who came back.

Thank You for the endless blessings despite my sinfulness, for the never ending opportunities despite all that I have let pass me by, for making my ♥ a stronger one despite my constant repetition of things that will tear it apart, and for taking away what does not truly belong to me (this goes out to people, too!).

Thank You for building me up despite all those who would love to see me down, for giving me what's best even when I don't deserve it, and for making me realize things I wouldn't have realized had I been with the same people in the same situation.

Thank You for the gift of life and love, of family and friends, of faith and fate.

Thank You for the gift of patience that I still am in the process of learning and learning to love.

Thank You for the gift of worth and how it's making an impact in my life and the gift of courage to walk away.

Thank You for making me one blessed daughter of Yours and for continually guiding my path even at times I tend to lose my way.

Here's to the year that passed and to the year ahead. Thanks BRO!

Like a caterpillar soon to be wrapped in an ugly cocoon, life turns the bad into good, the ugly into something beautiful. And just as the cocoon turns into a stunning butterfly, every dark experience shall turn into the most inexplicably beautiful occurrence. We just have to WAIT...♥ -Shengoy

For the Mean Time...

By: Anonymous


She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need a date to your company's Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She's the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One." You know, the one you keep in the MEANTIME.

She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't look at her as a "real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in the light. She's too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by.She's too understanding, too comfortable. Doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she's cool, nice and funny, and attractive enough that when you're lonely and need intimate female companionship, she'll do just fine.

You don't have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, you don't have any facades to keep up, no pretense to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She's not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you. And you know that you don't have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship of that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her.

It won`t bother her that you`ll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She`ll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She`s just so cool.. why can`t all women be like that?!

But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don`t.. because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought) you know that it`s really not fair.

You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don't think she`s good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give in to your needs - she could really play hard-to-get. Bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she`s too short, or a little overweight, or has big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell, or just really not that type.

Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.

You`ll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she`ll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux.

She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile.

Mainly, she blends in with the crowd. She`s safe. She doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone`s head. She wants to be SPECIAL to someone, too. We all do.

She has feelings. She has heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger heart than any woman you've ever known because she`s had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway.

She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.

Thanks, Moree, for sharing this with me!

*I'm the SPACE he needed and I was too willing even if it hurts...*