Where It All Began

I still can feel your lips in mine
and how jittery it feels inside.
Your scent still lingers on my mind
not letting the pain subside.
All the memories of you haunts me to restlessness
till i can feel no more;
Numb as I can ever be
till all the pain rushes back to shore..

Is there any way i can be insensitive?
Why can i not get you out of my mind?
... my heart?
... my life?
Too many questions
All left unanswered.
And it's chasing away all of what's left of my sanity.

There's so much pain in me.
It breaks my heart,
Wounds my soul
And it's shattering my life into pieces.
I don't know if I'll ever be whole again..

Can somebody save me from falling apart?
How can i stop this craziness?
Now i know why they say sometimes ignorance is bliss.
I shouldn't have allowed myself to learn what love is all about;
I shouldn't have allowed myself to fall deeply in love with you.
And i guess this all started with that stupid kiss!!

Now that you're gone
I can't believe it's over.
How can it be over?
Have we even started?
Whatever the case, you're still gone
And i don't know if I'll ever be whole again.
Will I be?
I guess not.
How can I?
You've taken away what's left of me.
Will you come back?
I pray you will..
But still, REALITY STRIKES BACK.
YOU DON'T BELONG HERE.
But in time, you'll just be a thing in the past.
Someday, my mind will be over my heart
Cuz i loved you then and i love you now
BUT IT WILL END WHERE IT ALL BEGAN.

(Dated: 2 January 2005)