“It’s something that happens as we age up: we realize that it is nonsense to flirt with anybody. What’s important is to have someone FOR REAL.”
I’ve been receiving this text message from several different people for quite a time already and it’s only until lately that I get to feel its essence. It was a catching-up-on-each-other’s-lives-conversation with a good friend, which made me realize that, indeed, as we grow, we look forward to more stable things and get tired of JUST the thrill.
We were lining up for a cab after a day out when it both hit us: it’s better to be in a stable relationship no matter how boring it might seem at first than go for the thrilling but fleeting. Well… who doesn’t want the thrill? The thrill of the chase and being chased, of breaking up and making up all over again, of goodbyes that never ends, of wanting to end it and not wanting to end it at the same time… You name it! Haven’t we all been there?
We know how audacious and foolish we are when we are young. We go for things even though we know it will break our hearts. We choose to be oblivious of the consequences for as long as we are happy NOW regardless if we will hurt others or ourselves in the long run. We think we are invincible, we think we have all the time in the world to waste over things that we barely even need and the things that we don’t even need at all. We think we always have tomorrow to make up so we overuse and abuse the virtue of forgiveness and second chances. We think that the world revolves around us when in fact, it doesn’t. We cry over the wrong things and wrong people and neglect the ones who have been there all along, just waiting to be recognized.
Then one day we wake up feeling tired of the chase and the love of the thrill that goes away without any warning. We then ask ourselves what is there left to give to have that something with someone who stays for good. Then we realize we just have to stay still and stop being restless. We just have to start being realistic and forget the ideals that just break our hearts. We just have to change our mindset and start appreciating the greater things in life.
That’s what I did.
Being the daring person that I was, those who know me well enough can attest how complicated my mind can be because I used to hate it when my life is simple. The law of attraction has a very big impact on me that even when I just sit still, complications find their way to me. I’m a "complication magnet", as another friend puts it. But even the bold and courageous gets tired. So I took a pause, a very long one at that. That’s when I realized that it’s time I settle for something REAL and forget the fleeting. I’m not getting any younger and I don’t have a lot of time to waste.
So to the next person in my life, here’s what I have to say: My ♥ is complicated. And I don't need someone bold enough to tame it and change its ways. I just need someone sensitive enough to know that my ♥ only needs two things: to be understood and accepted. =)
No comments:
Post a Comment