When i look at him, I feel INDIFFERENT.
I mean, yes, it’s “sayang” that I poured out my whole heart on him in a span of 9 months.
But seeing him now, I ask myself how could I even be so blind to let myself fall for another effective i-love-you-lie…
I loved him with all of me, yes.
I wouldn’t deny that cuz a part of me still wants to straighten things out with him.
BUT I’M SURE IT’S NOT OUT OF LOVE ANYMORE.
IT’S OUT OF SHEER WANT TO STEER NEGATIVITY AWAY.
I want so much to go back to my old sanguine self.Ü
The old Sheng who’s strong and not the Sheng he’s made me to be.
Cuz even though a part of me stays with him, a bigger part of me remains to myself, to the people in my life now, and will be for the remaining people i will meet in my lifetime.
Yes, I was hurt.
Actually, a part of me still aches.
But I’m back on my feet now.
And one of these days, I’ll be able to look him straight in the eye and say, “THANK YOU FOR GETTING OUT OF MY LIFE THE BEST TIME YOU KNOW WHEN TO”.
Cuz at the end of it all, I may have loved and lost but I loved with all of me.
I can deal with that.
I mean, yes, it’s “sayang” that I poured out my whole heart on him in a span of 9 months.
But seeing him now, I ask myself how could I even be so blind to let myself fall for another effective i-love-you-lie…
I loved him with all of me, yes.
I wouldn’t deny that cuz a part of me still wants to straighten things out with him.
BUT I’M SURE IT’S NOT OUT OF LOVE ANYMORE.
IT’S OUT OF SHEER WANT TO STEER NEGATIVITY AWAY.
I want so much to go back to my old sanguine self.Ü
The old Sheng who’s strong and not the Sheng he’s made me to be.
Cuz even though a part of me stays with him, a bigger part of me remains to myself, to the people in my life now, and will be for the remaining people i will meet in my lifetime.
Yes, I was hurt.
Actually, a part of me still aches.
But I’m back on my feet now.
And one of these days, I’ll be able to look him straight in the eye and say, “THANK YOU FOR GETTING OUT OF MY LIFE THE BEST TIME YOU KNOW WHEN TO”.
Cuz at the end of it all, I may have loved and lost but I loved with all of me.
I can deal with that.
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