Once there was a love I never thought would surface. We were friends, oh yes we were. And close friends at that... He was one of the trusted friends I used to confide in at times the world is at its insanest peak. He was the one I instantly run to every time I need a hand to hold. I was in an against all odds relationship at that time... And he was the one who always finds his way to me at times my heart bursts with tears and sadness. The mere thought of his friendship makes my gloomy days brighter and my heavy mood lighter...
The scenario was always like that till the time i had to leave. I had to leave town, and my relationship, too. I went on to find another life, another love, another world... And as days moved into months, I didn't notice how time went by fast. Years passed and I came across my old love. I came across my old friend, too. I thought the old love will be rekindled. Little did I know that another love will. The old friend confessed of something I never thought possible. But, yes. He did confess of how he felt back then. Was I surprised? Partly. But was I happy? In a way, I am. Because subconsciously, the existence of that old friend is one of the things that helped me make it through.
We may not have kept the friendship alive all the years we were apart but we never put an end to it either. And at that instant, I felt the surge of something I never thought possible between us. He belongs to someone else.
I may never understand why he had to tell me what he felt years ago, or if he still felt it at the time 'cause we never talked about it. But I'm glad that at a portion of his lifetime, he felt for me. I am guilty of making him feel otherwise and of never admitting this to him ever, but... At a portion of my lifetime, I felt for him too. I just didn't have the right to tell him and I didn't wanna complicate his life. But, yes, I DID FEEL FOR HIM TOO. And it took me a while to finally face it. Maybe we were both cowards not to face what we both felt. Or maybe we just didn't feel it at the same time. But we did feel for each other at some point in our lives and that's enough for me. I may not be able to say this to him upfront, but in case he'll need me, he still can talk to me the way he used to... Under the stars, sharing the same pillow... Sharing the same friendship. :)
The scenario was always like that till the time i had to leave. I had to leave town, and my relationship, too. I went on to find another life, another love, another world... And as days moved into months, I didn't notice how time went by fast. Years passed and I came across my old love. I came across my old friend, too. I thought the old love will be rekindled. Little did I know that another love will. The old friend confessed of something I never thought possible. But, yes. He did confess of how he felt back then. Was I surprised? Partly. But was I happy? In a way, I am. Because subconsciously, the existence of that old friend is one of the things that helped me make it through.
We may not have kept the friendship alive all the years we were apart but we never put an end to it either. And at that instant, I felt the surge of something I never thought possible between us. He belongs to someone else.
I may never understand why he had to tell me what he felt years ago, or if he still felt it at the time 'cause we never talked about it. But I'm glad that at a portion of his lifetime, he felt for me. I am guilty of making him feel otherwise and of never admitting this to him ever, but... At a portion of my lifetime, I felt for him too. I just didn't have the right to tell him and I didn't wanna complicate his life. But, yes, I DID FEEL FOR HIM TOO. And it took me a while to finally face it. Maybe we were both cowards not to face what we both felt. Or maybe we just didn't feel it at the same time. But we did feel for each other at some point in our lives and that's enough for me. I may not be able to say this to him upfront, but in case he'll need me, he still can talk to me the way he used to... Under the stars, sharing the same pillow... Sharing the same friendship. :)
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